My new glasses

Don't hate...and no you cannot borrow them.

Part of the reality of life is hardship. That is not a negative statement. It is simply a statement of

fact. Every day brings new challenges. Living with the expectation that life will be difficult makes

hard times easier to deal with. When a family encounters hard times they will need to join

together and face the challenge as a team. They will need to be sensitive to the needs of

individual family members each of whom will face unique difficulties. Life is not easy, but having

a support system makes life that much easier.

I'm home from visiting Sarah, I had a really good time and met some cool people.

My license is suspended, finally, I was waiting for that paper for like a month. I wonder if that means I shouldn't drive? I'm bummed that they actually suspended it. oh well, i'll get it figured out tomorrow, nothing I can do about it right this second.

going to Vacaville

i'm packing to go see Sarah tomorrow! I'm SOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!! We have so many things planned.

You know your from California when...

1. Your co-worker has 8 body piercings and none are visible.
2. You make over $300,000 and still can't afford a house.
3. You take a bus and are shocked at two people carrying on a conversation in English.
4. Your child's 3rd-grade teacher has purple hair, a nose ring, and is named Flower.
5. You can't remember if is pot illegal.
6. You've been to a baby shower that has two mothers and a sperm donor.
7. You have a very strong opinion about where your coffee beans are grown, and you can taste the difference between Sumatran and Ethiopian.
8. You can't remember is pot illegal?
9. A really great parking space can totally move you to tears.
10. Gas costs $1.00 per gallon more than anywhere else in the U.S.
11. Unlike back home, the guy at 8:30 am at Starbucks wearing a baseball cap and sunglasses who looks like George Clooney… really IS George Clooney.
12. Your car insurance costs as much as your house payment.
13. You can't remember... is pot illegal?
14. It's barely sprinkling rain and there's a report on every news station: "STORM WATCH."
15. You pass an elementary school playground and the children are all busy with their cells or pagers.
16. It's barely sprinkling rain outside, so you leave for work an hour early to avoid all the weather-related accidents.
17. HEY!!!! Is pot illegal????
18. Both you AND your dog have therapists.
19. The Terminator is your governor.
20. If you drive illegally, they take your driver's license. If you're here illegally, they’ll give you one.
Thought for today: According to the EPA, lead particles in the air in Los Angeles cause six thousand deaths a year. Los Angeles residents call them ‘bullets.

I drove Rachelle to Sac today, I thought I got lost and took a turn into China...I was getting afraid but luckily I saw the little sign that said OROVILLE like 2 hours later :)
directions aren't my thing and I tend to get lost.

I had a job interview today and tomorrow I actually spend a few hours to see if i'll like it, 6:30am seems to be my new waking time. I tend to get a sleepy headache around 2pm which just means i've been lazy for way to long!

I have just officially resigned from job corps, I got the confirmation email.

i'm having alot of mixed emotions, for some reason sadness is one of them.

home alone, wish mom wasn't out of town.

productive day

today has been productive, I wrote a list last night of some things I needed to do, they happened to be mostly in Chico and since my car is on the sick side I got up at 5:30am and went to Chico with my mom. Lots of time to kill.

I applied to 2 job locations and have an interview set for another in Paradise.

I'm trying to learn to enjoy boredom...well, not enjoy it but look at it differently.

Sandra and Erica are here, they stayed the night, it was just like old times. We've known each other for so long and were seperated because of sin for so long as well and now we are coming together to get right with God, we can be a strength to each other.

I Love them so and am so glad we are going to do this together!

mom and the fam had a meeting the other night, stripped me raw in my heart but now I can see things differently, it was a hard meeting but I respect my mom for it and things have to change and are going to change. Not saying its going to be easy and i'll fall sometimes but I have such a good support system that I can't imagine staying down for long.

its been a good day. I had a job interview to work for this cleaning company called "The Green Team." It sounds like an okay job and i'd be more than willing to take it. I've also applied to a few more places for receptionist jobs.

went to Trisha's baby shower, we are all so excited for baby Aiden James to come along!

its nearly 1am and sleep has yet to come. I've tossed and turned and cried and taken 3 tylenol pm and i'm still up. Wide awake isn't the word because i'm exhausted but my troubled mind won't rest.

The best things come at the end of a long,lonely and obedient road." ---Bro K

I just came across this quote as I was making plans to leave Oro, since being home from the hospital(all of a few hours) i've scrammbled to get out of here, to leave everything i've been working on. It feels like i've crashed and burned and I hate that feeling, I want to go back to job corps so badly right now and for all the wrong reasons.

then I ran across this quote after not hearing it since it was spoken and the person that spoke it is wise but i'm angry and my feelings hurt and I think i'm valid in feeling this but I need to choose the best way to handle the situation.

sorry if this makes no sense, my brain feels fuzzy...alot fuzzy.

scavenger hunt, etc.

I just got home from the Krantz, we had a scavenger hunt, my team with Amy,Kev,Holl, and Jeremiah rocked! We got a little distracted by a tickle bump we came across but had tons of fun!

We then went back to the house and ate yummy bbq food and while I napped on the couch the girls played kick ball and the guys played basketball.

Thanks Bro. and Sis. Krantz for the invite :)

my lack of a walk with God being questioned.

I thought I was progressing with my walk with God but the truth is, I didn't even have a walk with God. I figured I was dressing the part(most the time) and doing "right" as in I had stopped hanging out with my drinking friends, I wasn't watching tv but I also noticed I was/am still empty, I still am searching and tormenting myself with finding something to fill the empty space.

My mom actually brought this to my attention and I listenend and I did learn from what she had told me. I'm not going to write it out due to privacy but I know now what I need to do.

I'm afraid of reaching out to God, why would he want me? I have never been able to follow through with things or be open enough to let someone Love me and me Love them back.

I know that things need to change, thats a start.

feeling better

Yesterday was a rough day, I was in bed for 99 percent of it. Today is a better day, I got a steroid shot which helped raise my blood pressure, I was able to clean the kitchen and get dressed,kind of :)

i'm instructed to take my blood pressure every hour for 3 hours and if its still low standing then I will need a steroid infusion but I prayed on my way home from the doc that Lord willing I would feel better and be able to enjoy the weekend!!!

I have to move

Kevin threw a mosquito leg on the ground, how do I know where its at?
at this very moment he has the INSECT in a small bag blowing air into it to keep the thing alive...what a sick sick child.

well, i'm going to attempt a nap in before church and to hide from this kid.

I didn't get that job at the alarm company, oh well. I don't understand, I apply somewhere everyday! I'm swollen today and i'm sad I didn't get that job.